fuck. then in unit have to listen to all the str8 ppl toking abt gals. fuck. then i kept quiet there they treat mi as a dumb like i veri antisocial n outcaste lidat. i am not popular in the unit at all. worst thing is that they r not dumb ppl. they all from hcjc, vjc, tjc type. looks like i am realli a dumb there. fuck.
then evening the bloody guy whom stuart intro to mi took the initiative to ask mi out. 6.20pm meet at orchard mrt. nv turn up. call him nv answer. sms nv reply. fuck. still dare to tell mi not to fly his aeroplane ytd. mother fucker. at 7pm then came a bloody pathetic bullshit sms : i stuck on bus. bus broken down. yar rite, everyone treat mi like a bloody fool.thanks to him it reminded mi of how ugly i am to be able to scare ppl away.
i am bloody into depression now. really had enuff of the world. almost breakdown n cry. realli losing the meaning in my life. fucking ns waste ppl's time only. how i wish i could indulge myself in studies rite now n fucking heck everything else to get a good honors so that i could bloody fuck those kan ni na ppl who despise mi rite from when i was a kid n let them vanish under my hands.. muhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.........................................
i am going crazy. yes i am.
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