Tuesday, August 16, 2005
i realised how backward i am.. i am too indulged in relationships either in terms of frens or watever.. i have wasted too much time on such self-deteriorating activities.. after listening to ppl n wat they r doing in thier lives then i realised i am so mad n stupid to coddle myself in a comfortable position n be contented. i kept complaining abt having no activities during the weekends n on weekday nites. how foolish i am. ytd went swimming with jiamao sorta elicit what top pupils n universities students work. he was reading a thick organic chemistry university textbook with all the benzene rings with dunoe how many planars n functional grp type of reaction. he is already preparing for chem engineering in nus 2007 in the yr 2005! how lag am i! n heard that junliang they all those rjc student majoring in mathematics r doing A lvl further maths tys to continue spruring up their brain cells!. n kp today already borrow economics book from qy! everybodi is like preparing for university EXCEPT MI!!!!!!!.. i have realised how tough competition is going to be in uni esp NUS becoz the 1986 n the progressively intelligent batches of 1988 str8 A's students r there. geting an honors is so damn fucking difficult as protruding from the essence of the good is down right difficult. i have realised how competitive the students there r n i would definitely lose out n end up with an ineffectual degree. heard so much from stuart that those ajs from rjc, vjc n whatever have already planned their future journey. n not only studies. today kp went nus lib to study with qy he say there got hell lotsa of cuties! n he describe how how how cute some of them r!... not only studies, still have to compare looks n sports n wat have u. stress. i am getting damn stress now. i am so remorseful that i am not responsive to changes in this competitive world yet..
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