i am veri tired recently, not due to ns, but emotional n mentally drained.
sunday morning i went to padang becoz nicholas went for the marathon. we intended to meet after that. i waited from 11-1pm he was no where to be seen. hp was off. i went back at 1.30pm.
at 1.50pm he called n he said "i TOT I can meet for but U CHOSE to go home."
did i CHOOOOOOOSEE? HE SAID I CHOOOOSEEEE.
he say his legs can't walk properly that sunday nite.
so i took a CAB ( I AM NOT A RICH KID, MY DAD IS GOING BONKERS SUPPORTING MY SIS IN AUS) to clementi n went around looking for his bloody chicken rice which 5 stalls in clementi centre all either sold out or only left duck or no more rice or no breast meat....then bring to his house for him to eat.
i like do so much for him but he still complains i treasure family n frens more than him. saturday nite he wanted to meet mi but i had to attend jimmy's bday celebration.. he msged mi "u r another guy who treasures frens more than bf"
i am going bonkers. he expect mi to wat? when he suddenly wans to meet mi i have to cancel everything else??
sometimes his words make mi wanna cry.
n somemore i have to worry abt ****.
having paid $400+ for a redundant air tix to return to singapore too.
i have done so much but he couldn't see.
he can only see those that i lack there of yet
wat has he done for mi?
i had told myself, no one in this world is worth sheding my tears for except my parents n my dear frens. there is NO true love between couples.
alone 10:39 PM