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2006-04-01T13:03:00.000+08:00

You scored as Education/Counseling. Related majors that match your highest scored category: American Sign Language, Art Education, Business Education, Counseling, Early/Middle Childhood Education, Music Education, Physical Education, Psychology, Rehabilitation Services, Social Work, Special Education.

Consider all majors in your OTHER high scoring categories. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it. Consider adding a minor or double majoring. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.

Education/Counseling

81%

Psychology/Sociology

81%

Accounting/Finance/Econ

81%

HR/BusinessManagement

75%

Biology/Chemistry/Geology

75%

Nursing/AthleticTraining

69%

PoliticalScience/Philosophy

50%

Mathematics/Statistics

44%

French/German/Spanish

38%

English/Journalism/Comm

38%

Physics/Engineering

38%

History/Anthropology

25%

Visual&PerformingArts

19%

Religion/Theology

19%

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?
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2006-02-07T19:15:00.000+08:00

plan for 14th feb, valentines'.

work from 8am-5.30pm.
reach home 6.30pm.
online.
bathe.
have dinner.
watch tv.
slp.

2006-02-06T23:13:00.000+08:00

i am getting a bit frustrated and imptatient to live under ppl's wishes and command. it's like so many things n ppl out there to hinder u to get wat u wan swiftly and properly. many a times, u have to clear up the shit that is left over by some reckless and irresponsible ppl while the person could get away with it intact. it's so unfair.

n i realli hate the phenomenon of using my hard-earned money from giving tuition to pay for the FARKING DRIVING TEST! i dunnoe y i have to work so hard for! i will never let those ugly, old, grumby bastardy uncle testers off. they better watch out. next time when they are old n poor, i will spit at them when i finally drives past them in my BMW. wait and see.

2006-01-15T22:22:00.000+08:00

i am finally out of some shitty person's life n i am freaking happy! i have time to love myself now. =) i wun let someone waste my time waiting due to his bad time management n also somewho who has the cheek to say it's my retribution that i landed up in hospital to interfere my life.

juz got a nice tann on saturday at my country club. =) been so long after the rainny days n also my stay in hospital.
now i would have to spend time gaining back body mass after lossing 5kg due to food poisoning n also earn more money for myself. yes. myself. no more spending money on unncessary ppl. juz gotten another tuition deal for $230 for 8 hrs. =) it's like $28.50 an hr!! hehehe...

n i cannot believe that chad is posted to my unit HRSC n we are in the SAME BRANCH. omg. that's bloody coincident! now we can bitch abt the ppl there n also discuss abt cute guys! muahahaha..

2005-12-29T13:55:00.000+08:00

haiz...
juz being discharged from hospital AGAIN. twice in a yr. WTH.
1yr-18yr: NO PROBLEM
19yr: gastric ulcer perforation with laparotomy done with onament patching in april 2005. now, bacteria n viral infection of the stomach n intestine due to food poisoning.

i juz hope that i WON'T EVER need to be admitted into the hospital again.
i didn't get to enjoy christmas, n my long awaited ANNUAL LEAVE, and the NEW YR!!
the worse thing is that i am now thin n ugly!! i cannot go out to face the public in anytime soon. FUCK.
and i have to thank the people who came to visit mi...

2005-12-23T11:10:00.000+08:00

i am feeling so lonely on christmas eve's eve...
i am fearful of the festive season
for thy am empty.
for e new yr ahead.
i do not like uncertainty.

i enjoyed my unit's yr end function @ NS hOMEtEAm(bukit batoK)
had some presents from my mdm this christmas though i nv won any lucky draw.
for the great cuisine served at guilin restaurant.
for i scored the highest point out of 100+ ppl in laser quest.

2005-12-18T18:43:00.000+08:00

Nicholas' hp:

Received on 17/12/05
Time: 14:14:57
Sender: Dominic(tanned, tonned, 6 pacs, smooth)

ya can try, but u only touch mi with ur hands only, i mean i think can use something else...

2005-12-16T19:07:00.000+08:00

wee...

21st dec: half day leave
22nd dec: HRSC yr end function @ cdans.
23rd dec: leave
24-26th dec: christmas hols
28th-30th dec: leave
31st-2nd jan: new yr hols

i am so BLOODY HAPPY.

i hate DARYL TAY WEIJIE. he is a bloody ass scatter. ulgy n beefy but thinks he himself veri fit n cute. speak angmoh all the time. likes to bully ppl, likes to show off his so called "kong fu". typical son of a rich bastard. so wat?! from SJI still go to CJC n had CDE C5(SPEAKS ANGMOH UNTIL LIKE SO POTATO GP STILL LOSE TO MI WAT A JOKE) for A lvls. i love god. he punishes disguisting ppl like him.

2005-12-15T00:12:00.000+08:00

13/10/2004: HIV antibodies test result: negative
13/12/2005: HIV antibodies test result: negative

2005-12-06T22:39:00.000+08:00

sometimes, i juz wonder has heaven made mi a fool or the upbringing of mi by my veri parents mould mi into one?

i am veri tired recently, not due to ns, but emotional n mentally drained.

sunday morning i went to padang becoz nicholas went for the marathon. we intended to meet after that. i waited from 11-1pm he was no where to be seen. hp was off. i went back at 1.30pm.
at 1.50pm he called n he said "i TOT I can meet for but U CHOSE to go home."
did i CHOOOOOOOSEE? HE SAID I CHOOOOSEEEE.
he say his legs can't walk properly that sunday nite.
so i took a CAB ( I AM NOT A RICH KID, MY DAD IS GOING BONKERS SUPPORTING MY SIS IN AUS) to clementi n went around looking for his bloody chicken rice which 5 stalls in clementi centre all either sold out or only left duck or no more rice or no breast meat....then bring to his house for him to eat.

i like do so much for him but he still complains i treasure family n frens more than him. saturday nite he wanted to meet mi but i had to attend jimmy's bday celebration.. he msged mi "u r another guy who treasures frens more than bf"
i am going bonkers. he expect mi to wat? when he suddenly wans to meet mi i have to cancel everything else??

sometimes his words make mi wanna cry.
n somemore i have to worry abt ****.
having paid $400+ for a redundant air tix to return to singapore too.
i have done so much but he couldn't see.
he can only see those that i lack there of yet
wat has he done for mi?

i had told myself, no one in this world is worth sheding my tears for except my parents n my dear frens. there is NO true love between couples.

2005-11-19T10:57:00.000+08:00

wednesday went to watch cold showers. hehe. R21. opps. but i watched. no meaning to the show. it purely utilizes sexual scenes to get its audiences. (F/N: kp...got nice angmoh naked scenes..)

2005-11-14T21:29:00.000+08:00

sianszzzzz... juz did a bloody 24 hr guard duty on sunday. -_- sunday 8am ask mi rot until at nite..the feeling is soooo terrible. then today continue work until 5.30 %^()Q#()%*!*)_@$. army sux. make ppl dun have enuff personal time n deteriorate ppl's body becoz of insufficient rest.

2005-11-12T12:43:00.000+08:00

Round-abt and long route students whom i always get involved with always get on my nerves.the way they do things r so fuming. i realise a lot those ppl realli dunoe how to think 1. sometimes realli not want to scorn them, but it's true...

arrrgggghhhhhhhh all the ppl i like all this type dumb dumb yet cute but the way they do things n how they think always makes mi fume
n they always veri likely to get aids.

2005-11-09T20:34:00.000+08:00

2005-11-09T19:38:00.000+08:00

2005-11-04T18:40:00.000+08:00

tuesday played mahjong.. n i am glad to announce that i am the grand winner AGAIN. yes. AGAIN. hehe. so ter, qy, kp n zy, no more undermining of mi!!..

tml i am flying to bangkok le..6pm flight. SQ 68. returning on 8th nov, tuesday, SQ 995 3.20pm flight. arrival 4.45m.

juz in case i died in terrorist attack in bangkok, my last words are that i never regret living the life of a person called hong rui.

2005-11-01T12:20:00.000+08:00

n yes. wat the fuck. i failed driving test again. i made a damn stupid mistake by turning into no. 3 instead of no 4 in the circuit. n number 3 is ONE WAY S course. fuck. how would i noe it's a one way thing when i tot that he wanted mi to do the S course. no. 4 is juz a bloody side road beside the S course only... nxt test.. 2/2/06. waste $300 n 3 months. thanks.

after that went to mdm gracia's condo parc vista at lakeside for our HRSC cohesion day. omg. i didn't noe that condo is soooooo damn posh. they built until like a fortress lidat...

"TCC BROWNIE WITH ICE-CREAM" damn nice. better than nydc or swensens'

"TCC COCONUT LATTE" veri nice too. next time can try making it on our own.
sat met up with amos to have high tea n for cruising ard for cuties in town...hehe..

at nite went to celebrate gary's bday @ marina bay eat steamboat. we chose the $12 one. damn nice coz got fresh live prawns still moving type. then u throw them into the hot water or the hotel metal pan the prawns sometimes jump out of it with thier last breathe. it's veri cruel. but the prawns taste sooooooo fabulous. better than crystal jade's. coz they r super fresh.

went clubbing after that. donan dragged for halloween's nite. "she" almost won the best dressed but kanna bitched by some ugly short fat slut who only noes how to win her votes by her uglyness. it's halloween aniway. enjoyed myself that nite. it has been ages since the last time so many ppl went. saw wilson jerald they all whom i nv see for so long already. saw augustio there too.

sunday went jb shop until dropped. omg. i canot belive i bought 4 pieces of clothes. spend quite alot. came back singapore bought 2 more from topman. total 6 pieces a day. omg. i am going bonkers. but i realli been depressed.

had this bloody chinese restuarant for lunch in citisquare. wtf. small servings n exp. would nv go there again.

2005-10-27T08:33:00.000+08:00

hehe..i am @ home now... took half day to practice for my driving test tml..

my opp blk downstairs got wake n last nite got hell lot of crabs n stars from the navy came!...then this morning got those men in total white navy uniform came too... muz be some big shot who has passed away....

2005-10-23T21:54:00.000+08:00

went play pool @ cuppage on sunday with kp,qy n ter...then went cartel @ cineleisure to have a sumptious dinner...hehe

that's mi!

"our drinks"

"FISH CUM PRAWN COMBO."

OMG. SOMEBODI's STOMACH SO BIG N FLABBY AFTER THE MEAL.

2005-10-23T14:21:00.000+08:00

sat nite went to watch TRANSPORTER 2. nice show but veri fake lah juz see the actions only.

my tutee FAILED EVERYTHING EXCEPT ENG N CHI which i TAUGHT him!!.. i am so proud of myself!! if his mum not so cheapskate hire a cheaper maths tutor than mi that time he would have passed his maths too. *BHB MODE* he owe it to mi if not he would have RETAINED SEC 3 NORMAL TECHNICAL.

2005-10-22T16:02:00.000+08:00

fri nite went to orchard with kp n yk. 1st time kp would wan to go town. met aeron. went for a drink n bitching session. then kp went home while mi n yk proceeded to tanjong pagar.

wat a nice place to chill out with frens. but too bad i have no frens who would go chilling out.

went to HAPPY for a while then left coz we both pathetic no frens there. then marcus n that scandalous "TOLD MI TIRED DUN WAN CLUB" Ray appear in marcus's car. omg. so we hopped on for a nite ride to geylang have TOU HUA then had a FOC ride home!! kekeke.. i love ppl who drives. =P.

had my revision driving lesson today n i am a bit the rusty... the instructor said i should have passed the last time round! BITCCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

2005-10-20T23:11:00.000+08:00

hr: nic, the news juz report thailand confirm got bird flu n become a contagious one that could be spread between ppl n 1 ppl already died from it. i think it is realli not safe to go there moreover got terrorist attacks. can we dun go to thailand? i realli dun feel safe going there at all. it will appear veri insensible to my parents to go there at this time too. is it possible to change now after we book the tixs? i am veri sorri to be so troublesome..i realli hope to go hols with u but can dun go to this unsafe place?

nic: DO YOU NOE THAT U R JUZ LIKE THOSE IGNORANT & NAIVE PPL (eg. UR PARENTS N THOSE KAN JIONG SPIDER), THEN MIGHT AS WELL TELL THOSE THAIS TO MIGRATE?

nic: IF U CAN'T GO, THEN SO BE IT!! I WILL GO ON OWN! YOU CAN GO BE UR FILIAL SON! YOU ARE REALLI WASTING MY TIME N EFFORT!!!

HR: those ppl staying there have no choices but we do have choices, life is abt choices, y go to such places when u noe that it is unsafe? sensible ppl wun have chosen to go there at this time. not juz my parents, it's myself who feel it's not rite to go there now, it is so not rite to be so insensible to go against my parents when myself feel it is not safe. i am realli sad that u said these to mi. if we couldnt agree on something then 4get it. but wat i wan to tell u is that i say all these is not that i dun wish to go hols with u. i reali wish to. it's juz the location. it is NOT sacrificing u in return for parents. i am not the type of teenagers who r lead by love blindly. i knew wat is meant to be sacrificed n wat is not. if u dun like mi this type i have nothing to say.

Hr: i can't believe that we r quarelling over holiday stuff. if we nv planned to go 4 hols everything wun not have happen. but since it has happen, nothing could heal the scar. i think we r already not in gd terms liao. no matter wat it is veri hard to go back to wat it was used to before..

nic: that's y i told u b4 there's a lot of differences bet the only son n not the only son!! those only son are more afraid to die n more timid to rebel!!

hr: u r wrong to say that. it doesn't appeal to all. it is generalisation!! p;s dun draft everything that happen to THE ONLY SON THEORY. sometimes it is not juz that. ur theories r veri ridiculous. u canot let the only son thing sink into ur head that anything boils down to ONLY SON THEORY! do broaden ur reasoning n logical scope. n y muz always rebel be it rite or wrong?! it is not the main aim in life!

nic: let mi tell u from my experiences. all only son will sacrifice bf becoz they cannot bear to give up their good life with parents!!

hr: hey!! i do not give up on my parents NOT BECOZ OF THE GD LIFE!! i am NOT so cheapskate! i dun give up on them coz i feel there's a RESPONSIBILITY to take care of them n HAVE HUMANITY!! it is so cruel to throw away ur parents when they r old!!'

nic: U HAVEN ANSWER MY QUESTION! IF UR PARENTS FORCED U TO CHOOSE BETWEEN THEM N BF, WAT WILL U DO??!

hr: i will make them stay with mi n my bf in the same house. if they cannot accept then i will go n visit them regularly n make sure they got money to use. think we should say no more. this time is not abt sacrificing who it is juz abt the location n my own fears. but wat i realli want to tell u is that i nv meant to sacrifice u. N I REALLI WAN TO GO HOLS WITH U. i even was so troubled n tot of how to make arrangements to suit everything after i told u that i couldn't go initially. i am veri tired. i am going to slp. i do not wish to say no more.

2005-10-18T21:35:00.000+08:00

went to play pool @ lot1 on sat afternoon with zy n qy.. i am the grand champion..hehe.
then zy who is boarded as PES BP went to qy gym to train after that..

(THESE PICS R TAKEN TOWARDS THE COMPLETION OF THE MEAL.)
then at nite we went to the coffee shop beside qy's condo to have "zi cha". ordered 3 dishes n our miniature stomach couldn't take it liao. lucky we nv ordered the 4th dish as qy the glutton suggested to.

sunday afternoon met up with nic. he's damn my type. however today i am in a state of loss. he was realli disappointed by mi for not going hols with him despite i
could really do so if i wanted to.. whole day no msgs from him at all... :_(

2005-10-15T10:43:00.000+08:00

i dunnoe wat happen to my blog skin. spoilt liao. wtf. cannot display. have to spend time doing up another skin....

had a boring week... wat's new..

2005-10-11T22:48:00.000+08:00

i cannot juz get it like that one. i did so little only. it will be unfair to mi. n i work so hard from young NOT to get a terrible death. my mind keep having this thinking that could not go away that i am already different from the rest n others can enjoy but i already had it i shouldn't be enjoying like the rest.i cannot dun bother n assume that i dun have..then i feel that i am bluffing myself. i have to go n see a psychiatrist.

2005-10-10T20:33:00.000+08:00

thursday went orchard to shop with a guy from my unit for ken's bday present n had dinner at pizzawalker @ wisma. it's a buffet with one main course, free flow chicken wings and all the other pasta stuff. $25 per person. damn broke man. n not forgetting the present worthed $30. ARRGGGGHHHHH....i realli need a sugardad. zach, gary, ter n qy bday all coming! help.

but i have to admit their service is damn gd n the pizza is super nice.

friday nite met up with someone that i had been chatting on msn for a long time liao. not as gd as i expected. but he said he likes mi. haiz..had swensens. their waffle is nice.

playing bridge on sat afternoon after mahjong. keke. i was super lucky on sat. i had one cap "HU" n one 4 TAIS "HU".

went to have dinner as a celebration for ken's bday @ cartel cineleisure. broke broke broke.

sunday met up with nic. found myself liking him more n more. he's those do things properly 1 n work hard for himself type. nice guy with a cute face n nice bod. =)

ytd nite tok to the bastard whom nv contact mi animore after he gotten wat he wanted. asked him some personal questions n it worries mi even more... =(.. today i couldn't even concentrate at work n appeared anti-social.. i realli could not wait for 6 more months...

2005-10-08T11:25:00.000+08:00

haven't been happy all these while becoz there's always this worry on my mind...have to wait for half a yr to clear it..so long u noe!! been wasting so much years away juz like that...haiz..

my dad is like away for 2 weeks n bitch! i dun have license if not can drive his car!.. gek si le!! driving test on 28/10/05 which is on the HRSC corp svcs retreat day at mdm gracia's condo @ parc vista n my mdm has agreed that i need not apply leave on that day for the test! yeah! can save half a day of leave this yr..

later going to play mahjong with kp, ter , qy n zy..it has been 5 months ago since we last met up with a full strength?..

at nite going to celebrate ken's bday. (for kp's info: not hcjc nor tjc ken, so dun need to be too excited..ya)...lol.

2005-10-04T23:35:00.000+08:00

so long nv update my blog coz nothing interesting n busy. ok there it is..

this is the kok kok boi who ostracize ajs. when his face is so kok kok. lol. went for the movie " THE MYTH" with him, wt, jm n eugene on sat coz they want to celebrate wt's bday. dun go then some ppl say i dun give face.

then went to cine the miko dunoe wat restuarant had dinner. it was the worst restuarant ever. small portions n huge numerical $$ n bad food. i would nv go back there to eat. october would be a broke month coz there's like wt, ken, kok kok boi, zach n my unit got 6 ppl bday n had to fork out money to buy presents for them lah! then 2nd n 4th NOV is qy n ter's bday. a double strike. actualli is quartet strike coz last yr A lvls nv celebrate for them so this yr had to pay back double. wth.

after that met up with ken n jimmy n gary. bought movie tixs at 1.15 am at cine but i went home without watching coz i think too late liao. BITCH!. wasted $9.50.

sunday morning met up with nic. hehe. happy to go out with him. wun elaborate more.

after that went ktv with qy. tot got the free 4 hours ktv coupon so we went to party world who noes in the end each person have to pay $16! i tot the drinks n tidbits all these wun cause more than $10. kanna bitched again. but nvm, nevertheless, we did enjoy ourselves. the most impt thing in life is to enjoy urselves aniway...

2005-10-04T23:15:00.000+08:00

at nite went to the "juz green" vegetarian restuarant @ chinatown with qy to dine. end up damn exp lah. each person $25. realli broke like mad. i canot believe i spend so much in juz 1 weekend.. but the food was gd. n the ambience resembles that of traditional inns that we have in china...=)

we tot so gd got free pickles to stimulate our taste buds b4 our orders 1. who noes we r paying for it for $2 per plate! bitch!

nice vege with abalone... slurrrrrpppppp...

already eaten like half of it liao coz we were too fascinated by the food that we 4got abt taking photo b4 we indulged on them..

2005-09-25T23:33:00.000+08:00

oh...i am being a great fool again. i am realli realli veri veri sad in this point of time. no one realli treat mi seriously. n i can nv find someone who belongs to mi.

the guy who likes mi is ATTACHED n dating someone else now n also woo-ing mi now, n worst thing is that THE GUY I LIKE IS ALSO ATTACHED FOR MORE THAN A YR N CLAIM THAT HE IS NOT WITH GD TERMS WITH HIS BF N DUN MIND GOING OUT WITH MI.
n someone cheng ji held my hand for a while on mrt today at the same time psycho-ing a 18 yr old guy to stay over at his house tonite n had sex with **** ***** on tuesday.

oh well, FFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK THIS WORLD.

2005-09-25T08:31:00.000+08:00

suitors r like buses. when u waited, they dun come, when u dun wan animore, they keep coming.

fri saw this veri cute guy n stuart actualli knows him so he intro to mi..n to my surprise he likes mi too!.. =)
at nite went clubbing it was the 1st time ever that someone wanted to take my number. omg. ok. i am a loser i noe coz ppl will say like "har? 1st time only, i got uncountable times liao.." nvm...but this guy a bit the scary. not in terms of looks lah, he veri persistent keep sms-ing mi n ask mi out.

then there is someone else who is showing interest in mi also. i apologise if u r puking rite now while reading my blog. yes i noe. i am puking too coz these ppl have no taste.

went shopping @ taka with ter, qy, kp on saturday..it has been awhile for the 4 of us to hang out like this...ter wanted to buy a high class belt for his dad's bday n his budget was $500 but we were shun away by LV when the salesman said "sorry, i am afraid that we do not have belts that r $500 n below." ok..nvm. so u went for high tea instead.

we went coffee bean @ taka.

at nite went to bugis to meet ken n jimmy. had "zhu chao" for dinner.

the new national lib @ nite. veri beautiful.

n today is sun. the guy who took my number @ whynot n the other person who show interest ask mi out today. dun think i will go out with them. i wan to spend today @ home doing some soul searching n take a break from the complicated world outside.

2005-09-22T18:33:00.000+08:00

i realli feel like slapping the hcjc guy from my unit. he is way too disguisting. he say he wan to train fit fit so that go uni that time can attract gals. I PUKE GREAT TIME. so thin n white n tall n ugly kanni na no matter how to train also cannot 1 lor. wan to attract gals? can attract mi 1st then say. then he started to do push ups in the office n so on. then tonite he going club momo to jio gals. DAMN ER XIN. he keep scolding the plump n blur office gal in our unit stupid and also dun give a damn abt other nsf in the unit who r more reserved. i realli hate this type of typical chinese high hcjc guy so bhb n think he is veri smart n great type whereas in reality he is not at all. muz realli be richer n smarter that that bastard to stem him from being so bhb.

augustio realli nv call mi animore. he is so cruel. the tot of his cruelty makes mi loathe him while the times we had still make mi miss him... i am at a lost.

wednesday nite met up with sk n yk n their sisterhood fren Beyone from acjc @ city hall. Met **n & *e***** there. lol. we all veri lucky coz all staying out. gathering of the jc ajs. had a great nite out.

time flies too fast liao...tml is fri again. weekends have no plans yet. sianSSSssss...

2005-09-19T00:19:00.000+08:00

the beautiful nite view of bugis from the restaurant...

mi n ter intending to buy this restuarant down to start our own restuarant. this is a gd location coz ajs love going to shaw towers to watch movies n SMU and national library r juz around the corner!

this is the lunar 15th mid-autumn festival moon taken in front of the ritz carlton.

2005-09-19T00:14:00.000+08:00

chilling out at starbucks @ citisquare for high tea... .

ktv at citisquare with terry n kp...

oh ya... not forgetting our rich tai-tais breakfast @ sweet secrets citisquare...

posh turkish restuarant SOFRA for dinner @ shaw towers. had dinner there for FREE. coz qy treat. muhahahaha... omg i juz realised that i led a rich tai-tai lifestyle for the whole day! shoik. bought 2 cap sleeves shirt @ topman @ suntec after reaching singapore and a tank top in citisquare.

2005-09-17T17:21:00.000+08:00

..when i am alone, i keep having this nausea empty feeling dunoe wat to do with my life n realli miss augustio like crazy. i am going to die of missing lost loved ones soon. i am already getting thinner n thinner..i haven been happy at all for all these while....

2005-09-16T18:49:00.000+08:00

omg i realli can't believe wat the hcjc guy said. he said he tml going to modelling agency on his own initiative. wat the hell. he model? puke. some ppl juz have myopia with too high degrees...

n then today went for swimming at safra mount faber then the tjc guy drives us there. i realli realli die die want to pass my driving test nxt month!! i cannot wait to drive it's so cool! he boom the music damn loud n we scroll down all the windows then he drive damn fast the feeling dunnoe how good!! realli envy him man! he's rich that y can afford to drive to cmpb every day. n i cannot believe that inside the pfile room 6 out of 9 nsf live in either semi-detach house or bunglow!n i am the 3 out of 9 that is not!! bitch. now i realli dunnoe where r all the poor ppl! everywhere i go i only see the rich ones...aarrrrggggggghhhhhhhhhh!!

2005-09-12T22:29:00.001+08:00

saturday nite @ spinelli with gary & ken..they listen to my problems while i listen to theirs.. good sisters!

byrant... wan to die ah! now prelims still come out! lolx. @ maxwell on sat nite. but nevertheless u will get great results dun worry coz u r a 10 pointer!

yum yum...genki sushi @ jp citisquare.

sat nite @ somerset. such a beautiful nite is spoilt by the loneliness in mi..

sat buffet dinner @ yaki sushi @ cineleisure. i think i am overdosed with sushi...

2005-09-12T22:07:00.000+08:00

@ jb genki sushi eat until shoik on sunday..

at neway ktv sing until shoik coz no need to fight for the mic...

managed to took a photo of the hcjc guy that i bitch abt @ cmpb bus stop... er xin rite. he's the one not in no.3

2005-09-10T13:36:00.000+08:00

i dunnoe wat's wrong with mi. i seem to be in a real depression. i couldn't do anithing rite. i juz keep thinking wat do i wan actaulli. been thru ns, uni, so wat? alone all the while?...n for the rest of my life?..i am realli realli painful to be not able to be with the person i like... it's so lonely.

2005-09-10T10:47:00.000+08:00

outside WHYNOt

fri nite went clubbing with ray, ken, javin, edison, frankie n etc... didn't realli enjoyed it coz i saw augustio. AGAIN. 4th time in 15 days. he definitely looked cute n i was veri disturb by the fact that he know so mani ppl n hugged ard. diaoz. he realli is a lao jiao in this circle. almost everyone noes him. n i was shocked that ken knew augustio!! omg omg. then i saw jerone with cas too!. n worst thing is that augustio say the guy who look like himself is the bf of sajc marcus my batch 1! omg omg. realli surprising. that marcus USED TO be str8 from river valley high 1.

inside WHYNOt

n i am veri sad that i can nv be with the person i like..saw mani couples there i dunnoe when then i can be with the person i like. n the worst thing is my stomach ache like hell after clubbing not becoz i stretched it or wat. it is the smoke. yes. the doc especially warned mi NO SMOKING. i think the gastric ulcer is caused by the frequent in-take of passive smoke from the clubs that i used to go after A lvls coz last time i am perfectly fine when i haven started clubbing. so i think last nite is the last time i am going to club in the rest of my life. sad. y such things happen to mi? other ppl smoke so much also nothing happen.

n today i have no plans at all. fabulous.

2005-09-09T18:15:00.000+08:00

fri comes again! but this weekend seems abit boring la..no plans yet. saded. ter kanna confinement for 4gotting to sign a stupid document.duh. my tower there dun sign those type of redundant infomation document also nobodi cares. sometimes we even throw it into the dustbin. lolx. lives r so different. hah.

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2005-09-06T22:22:00.000+08:00

omg. i can't believe it. i saw augustio today again on the train after work. y did fate make mi meet him again n again..? it cannot be by chance coz i have seen him 3 times already at different places n time. it is so zun that i am on the same train, same cabin same door. everywhere i am no matter when n where there he is. 1st time is at heerens, 2nd time delta pool, 3rd time mrt. all happen within 10 days. y did fate wan to play with mi? he change his number dun wan to give mi but yet fate keep making mi meet him. wat is this...

then i wan to bitch abt the hcjc guy from my unit. i did a check on the cpc system n guess wat. he bluff us that he got AAB for As actualli only ABB! lol. loser. then the tjc guy damn str8 can go mambo nite on wednesday until 3am nxt day 8am have to report to office n drive car type he got CCC! omg. i have always tot that he is those type gd in every aspect n got life n sporty type who noes he turn out to be someone who only noe how to have fun. moral of story: nv envy the cover, coz u nv noe how rotten its back scenes are.

2005-09-05T18:31:00.000+08:00

sunday went comex n food fair @ suntec with sec sch mates jiamao n jl...

this is mao, tuas naval base sergeant cum jjc top student.

veri veri crowded place...

saw a damn cheap webcam n so i bought it @ only $28 n somemore the resolution veri clear... n i bought a 512MB MMC for my 6230i for $53.... spend hell lot this weekend...

after that went to meet up with yk n sk @ city hall..hehe.

2005-09-04T10:43:00.000+08:00

so long nv had a great weekend already. so glad that i enjoy this one. johnny organised a pathetic classs outing n yes, 6 ppl turn up only. expected. aniways it wouldn't be this gd if ppl like jaya, jinfeng they all turn up. lol. loittering ard undecided wat to have for dinner. finally settled down in swensens suntec.

JOEL, JOHNNY N DANIEL, WITH DANIEL AS COCK AS B4 N STILL TOKING CRAP.

JASON N MI! BOTH THE DROP-PHYSICS-COZ-IT-SUXS-MATE.

GROUP PHOTO AT THE FOUNTAIN!

i have to say this is the 1st time i really enjoyed the class outing... realli. maybe it's becoz those who turned up r not the act act type like jaya.

after class outing went to meet gary, ken, jimmy n some of this other frens to go ktv-ing at party world tanjong pagar. some of u might say "siao ah sat nite so exp".. no no.. it's always gd to go out with a gold mine. wat's new? gary's new admirer volunteered to treat $50 on the total bill!! hehehehe.... ZUAN DAO.

this is gary singing emotionally.

ken singing beautifully.

2005-09-03T14:19:00.000+08:00

omg. i cannot believe how happening is the world outside now. today went to delta swimming complex to sun tan. then i saw augustio. it was raining then everybodi left. then while everyone was waiting for the rain to stop to leave the place, got a tan, well-built n not bad looking guy looking at augustio. after augustio left, i saw the guy went to take his car at the car park! wao got car leh rich guy. then while i was walking towards the mrt station saw an aj then he change direction n followed mi. omg. then that guy with car was waiting beside the mrt station for mi! he was not waiting for mi, he was actualli waiting for mi to ask mi abt augustio's contact. wat a slut. he say augustio damn cute. then the guy who was following mi saw mi toking to that guy then he sian diao....

2005-09-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

this is javin covering his face coz he shy.... taken at ps food court. stuart brought mi to meet cody n javin n edison on sunday nite... sunday nite outing r fun. i wan MORE of it..haha..=) watch RED EYE at marina GV. it is is gd thrilling show. muz go watch.

oh btw, went MMI on tuesday n they going to upgrade mi to pes B. bitch. i going back to tekong for bmt soon.. sian... n i waited for 2 months for my defence tech towers security pass n i juz got it today then leaving liao..so lame..

2005-09-01T23:10:00.000+08:00

i wan to bitch abt my unit ppl..that hcjc guy realli getting a bit er xin. he is tall thin n white n yet think he veri gd looking everytime wear those funky large size clothe then go n shave botak then cut those lines on his botak head. then he super horny for gals always look at maxim or FHM with the other guys from my unit then go clubbing n date gals type. veri er xin lor... speak like he is veri knowledgable like that. so wat he from hcjc. his grades r only like AAB which is the same as mi.. lol. then my unit ppl like worship him like that think he veri "in" n "trendy" . pukes. i disagree totally. another guy who can clique well with him also abit like him. not veri gd looking but whole day lookin in the mirror on his desk n realli is look at it for quite a while. with pudgy lips n ugly gums n big round nose. also veri horny for gals. also go clubbing n tok abt gals. n ytd he tried doing 30 situp with his flabby stomach already cramp n complain pain today. still wan to jio gals. omg. then somemore they hate gays. slap.

then they hate ugly gals too. got this plump n not gd looking gal in the office who is blur n always do the wrong things. they all always make fun of her n scold her with names. i think it is veri bad lor. i saw her crying today i think she could not take anymore insults. even the other DXOs r treating her like shit. i hate fat n yet bitchy gals but she is only blur but not bitchy at all. i do not hate her at all. i think she is veri ke lian lor... realli hate that few NSF who ostracized her so much... then downstairs got this super pretty gal called mei jun they all r crazy abt her. wat bastards. real bastards. canot stand them animore... they dunoe how to look at the mirror b4 they like pretty gals..

2005-08-27T15:20:00.000+08:00

this is my blog.....keke

this is qy's laptop...damn gd. can online aniwhere...these photos r i juz took using my hp n uploaded str8 away into her pc using infra-red port!! omg! damn high tech n convienient! bitch. i also wan such a pc.

le beef stroganoff pasta by delifrance! qy has become a rich tai tai after going to nus, she having delifrance as high tea

this is THE beautiful girl i am toking abt...isn't she marvelous?

2005-08-26T18:37:00.000+08:00

ok. had YET ANOTHER bad day. starting from morning. this morning saw my pri sch classmate cum neighbour when left house today. he going SP so also walking to chinese garden mrt station to take train. so we walk together there. i told him i was going to be late already muz walk veri veri fast so that i could catch the lastest possible train to make it on time to unit. then he bloody walk so slow la despite i again n again told him i have to rush. bitch. but luckily i managed to catch that train realli juz juz juz in time. then i didn't enter the door whereby it is the nearest door from the escalator at queenstown mrt station so that i could chiong without obstruction to the bus stop. n my worst fear came thru. the bus was already closing the door when i reach the bus stop. i could have flagged it but i juz didn't coz i didn't wanted to run n throw face.

then it was bloody raining heavily n then the nxt bus came at 8am. i knew i was doomed. then i didn't managed to get on the 8am bus coz it was full!!.. how bitchy could things get. then i went to flag a cab then the 1st cab i flagged didn't stop n yet zoom past so bloody fast n SPLASH MY WHOLE UNIFORM WET!!!!.......fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.........

2005-08-25T20:50:00.000+08:00

fuck. had a real bad day. 1stly the bloody media keep repeating itself on the topic of aids n linking it to aj. y cant they report SOMETHING NEW?! if cannot then quit being a journalist coz these ppl r simply not innovative enuff to come up with new topics. n this bloody recurring news keep haunting my mind times n times again n revitalise my fears again n again.

fuck. then in unit have to listen to all the str8 ppl toking abt gals. fuck. then i kept quiet there they treat mi as a dumb like i veri antisocial n outcaste lidat. i am not popular in the unit at all. worst thing is that they r not dumb ppl. they all from hcjc, vjc, tjc type. looks like i am realli a dumb there. fuck.

then evening the bloody guy whom stuart intro to mi took the initiative to ask mi out. 6.20pm meet at orchard mrt. nv turn up. call him nv answer. sms nv reply. fuck. still dare to tell mi not to fly his aeroplane ytd. mother fucker. at 7pm then came a bloody pathetic bullshit sms : i stuck on bus. bus broken down. yar rite, everyone treat mi like a bloody fool.thanks to him it reminded mi of how ugly i am to be able to scare ppl away.

i am bloody into depression now. really had enuff of the world. almost breakdown n cry. realli losing the meaning in my life. fucking ns waste ppl's time only. how i wish i could indulge myself in studies rite now n fucking heck everything else to get a good honors so that i could bloody fuck those kan ni na ppl who despise mi rite from when i was a kid n let them vanish under my hands.. muhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.........................................
i am going crazy. yes i am.

2005-08-24T18:44:00.000+08:00

http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/smoochie.html

this is so damn disguisting..can puke. dunoe who created this so bian tai.

2005-08-24T18:36:00.000+08:00

suddenly had this veri lonely feeling today.. at work n on the way home.. dunnoe wat i live for everyday like juz spending the days away...

2005-08-21T15:34:00.000+08:00

2005-08-19T13:47:00.000+08:00

Getting very impatient of the ppl outside. Cannot believe ppl outside r so disgusting. Aunties n uncles so cheapskate n kiasu until have to deliberately cut queue or push u away when boarding bus. Then hai ppl cannot board the bus n be late n kanna fucked. They should have tot who is the more impt n more useful person in the future mah. So old liao the cunt also loose liao kanna fucked more times also nvm wat. It is we the young who cannot be late n get fucked wat. Brainless.

n then there r bastards who would make every effort to get u if they r fond of u but after they lose interest in u, there wun be a single msn msg from him, no sms, no phone calls no nothing although some ppl agreed to still be frens. well done.

Then there are those normal tech kids who change tuition from mon to Tuesday to wed, then to Thursday n TO FRIDAY. Telling the tutor last min each time. Then hai the tutor have to eat dinner every single day out. Wat to do, the society definitely muz have ppl like them to clean the toilet n sweep the floor wat. But juz hope that these scumbags bear in mind that they can do anything they wan to destroy their own lives juz dun hai other ppl whose lives r still in gd condition.

However, I thank god as he had made the sensible n higher EQ guys to be gays n making the str8s being ugly, insensitive, and BHB. All of them juz think they r so cool n gorgeous that the gals would wan to let them fuck. So naïve. HRSC’s guys really need to buy some mirrors, if not, microscopes so that they could see themselves more clearly: how white, fat or thin they r with their pudgy lips, yellowed teeth, un-toned n soft bods, making them learn that even thou they go clubbing every single week for the hope of fucking some gals could nv come true? So pls, stop toking abt this chio that chio that one fuckable for the sake that thou will nv like guys like u all. Even gays also wun like…

YEAH RITE!! FUCK THIS GOD DAMNED WORLD. YES FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-08-16T11:28:00.000+08:00

i realised how backward i am.. i am too indulged in relationships either in terms of frens or watever.. i have wasted too much time on such self-deteriorating activities.. after listening to ppl n wat they r doing in thier lives then i realised i am so mad n stupid to coddle myself in a comfortable position n be contented. i kept complaining abt having no activities during the weekends n on weekday nites. how foolish i am. ytd went swimming with jiamao sorta elicit what top pupils n universities students work. he was reading a thick organic chemistry university textbook with all the benzene rings with dunoe how many planars n functional grp type of reaction. he is already preparing for chem engineering in nus 2007 in the yr 2005! how lag am i! n heard that junliang they all those rjc student majoring in mathematics r doing A lvl further maths tys to continue spruring up their brain cells!. n kp today already borrow economics book from qy! everybodi is like preparing for university EXCEPT MI!!!!!!!.. i have realised how tough competition is going to be in uni esp NUS becoz the 1986 n the progressively intelligent batches of 1988 str8 A's students r there. geting an honors is so damn fucking difficult as protruding from the essence of the good is down right difficult. i have realised how competitive the students there r n i would definitely lose out n end up with an ineffectual degree. heard so much from stuart that those ajs from rjc, vjc n whatever have already planned their future journey. n not only studies. today kp went nus lib to study with qy he say there got hell lotsa of cuties! n he describe how how how cute some of them r!... not only studies, still have to compare looks n sports n wat have u. stress. i am getting damn stress now. i am so remorseful that i am not responsive to changes in this competitive world yet..

2005-08-14T23:03:00.000+08:00

this is the worst weekend i ever had. i cannot take it that i really totally wasted the weekend without going anywhere n meeting anyone. i really cannot think of who i can ask out. so pathetic. n the weekdays r coming tml. but wat's the point of aniticipating the weekends aniway?

2005-08-10T13:31:00.000+08:00

2005-08-09T15:08:00.000+08:00

today my unit dun have half day..sians...my whole unit ppl slacking whole day except mi coz i doing medical board stuff cannot stop 1. bitch.

after work went to meet up with ray, stuart n hcjc ken in town... had a good chat with them n taken some photos.. had an enjoyable day. =) tml going jb watch movie, sing ktv, eat like a king, n shop till drop... hehe. SHOIK.

2005-08-07T16:18:00.000+08:00

quite happy today. it is the 1st time after so mani weeks of trauma i could finally go out n relax without the constant appearance of the mental torment of my tradegies...went east coast with my gd frens today. =) got 2 cuties bod tan n tone n got 6 pacs n face cute boiboi roller blading one chasing the other n the one behind holding onto the cute guy's nice n tight waist! *GASP*..how envious....

the following pic is taken on the mrt. someone say the person in the pic is damn chio! let's take a look.

then at nite went town n saw sajc chem lecturer david wong with a super sissy gay at HMV!.. wat a bitch still dare to tell us how he celebrate valentine's day with his "GF"...

had a enjoyable day.. =)

2005-08-06T13:49:00.000+08:00

chilling out at coffee bean @ jp..

2005-08-06T10:06:00.000+08:00

time flies so quickly..another week past again.. n i am realli growing old. i am already 19 and 5 months.. haiz..

this morning went to NUH have last follow-up. saw patients being pushed around on wheel chairs n beds, let mi tot of the truama i went thru 4 months ago.. i am realli veri scared of health problems now. once bitten twice shy. saw the patients there u will realli think abt wat's life all abt. once u have a health problem, no matter how gorgeous or how high flying u once were will disappear at once. u will be lonely n only envious how happy u once were n yearned to have the same kind of life back then n when u noe it's impossible u will realli breakdown. n the worst thing is that u let down ur parents n vanish their efforts n hopes showered upon u n they would also be pathetic when they become senior citizens.

n once again, on a lovely fri nite, i am back alone at home facing pc then listening to music.. feeling realli empty..

2005-08-04T11:00:00.000+08:00

the morning thunderstorm skies over jurong east sports complex... so aesthetic!

2005-08-04T10:21:00.000+08:00

the 2 guys together looks soooooooo sweet..how envious...
i wil never have this... =...(

2005-08-01T00:20:00.000+08:00

"some of the many at the chalet"

went to danny's birthday chalet ytd. didn't noe most ppl there. a few cute ones but can't get to noe them aniway... sad.

2005-07-31T03:44:00.000+08:00

my unit got this MC king from tpjc..the whole unit hates him. he's fat, n i mean realli fat, ugly n lazy n worse of all, he is horny n super lusty of gals! yuck. thou other ppl from my unit r also str8 who keep toking abt gals, this chio that chio that one fuckable la n they go str8 clubs often. but this fat lobo is realli atrocious. ever since i enter the unit, i dun get to see him often becoz he almost every week take mc for little stuff. abit neck ache la, fever, n watever. last fri he took mc until this thursday, then from 1st aug to 8 aug he took mc too. dunoe how he do it. then knowing that he has guard duty on the 9th,he scold fuck n he went to extend his mc. n whole day he would juz sit there stone, all the work piling on his table is 4ever there. then a little work thrown to him he will scold fuck. he is juz simply lazy n gd for nothing. whole day think abt gals n sit there do nothing. waste the earth's resources. keep being sick n take mc like nobodi's business. might as well chop him as pES F as well....n he couldn't get into any university. expected. so lazy n unwilling to work of coz fail A lvls like mad. realli can chop him as pes F. or call undertaker.

2005-07-29T10:33:00.000+08:00

today my unit kanna held back until 6.30pm becoz a bloody pfile of IC S8041440D couldn't be located n it is urgent. fuck. wat a cursed IC so many 44444...n the number is so easily mis-read as S840 or S80441 or watever..if cannot find by IC no means it was misplaced somewhere in the 1.5 million files tell mi how to find!!? in the end can't find also. dun care. n i realised that the amt of work thrown to mi is getting overboard as each day goes by. this week the bloody medical board proceedings came 3 times!! normally it comes only once a week only. bitch. then got a lot of pes F the procedure so troublesome!!

"frens" r slowly leaving mi one by one. someone juz cut off his line n did not wanted to contact animore juz becoz i could not spend much time with him as i have something else planned on the same day. n some old aj "frens" who ask mi out only in times of need..other then that nv ever hear from them....

gd frens r busy with their lives n qy is also starting uni soon.. i am feeling so empty everyday when i go home. go home only face tv n pc. nobodi to tok to n nobodi in my life. i am realli realli empty inside.

2005-07-24T14:13:00.000+08:00

this is mi...so ugly lah..taken today @ swensens... today went to play mahjong with qy, ter n kp..so glad that after so mani weeks we got to meet up finally...haiz..

then now at home already..so sian. SAT nite i am going home at such an early hour.. wat to do..no frens mah. =(

2005-07-23T10:08:00.000+08:00

i am glad that i got over him already. hope he can find his own happiness n we can still be frens. n as for mi, i will still remain free n easy. =) no regrets.

aniway, today got sports day so i went to safra mt faber to laze around the pool. got one super aj guy with gd bod that is tan n tone wear a super skimpy trunks keep standing at the mirror there. damn bitch lor, try to hook ppl. but he's realli gd looking. then my unit ppl those str8 condemned him. realli bu zi liang li.

by the way, cpc is going to undergo renovation in aug so that the 9th floor wing still remain as cpc, n our 10th floor wing branched out from cpc n renamed HRSC. stands for human resource service centre. therefore, the cpc ppl is realli in charge of the postings n we are doing the letters from MP, documentation of charges, death, complains, data support n filing. today mi n my colleagues were discussing abt my stay at HRSC. they say those who r posted here r realli lucky coz our life here is realli damn wonderful if u compare to other army camps. we have a break at 10-10.30am daily n we can walk past lotsa crabs n bo chap without kanna fucked. n we have things like family day which we have a day to marina south play n we have sports day every friday. it realli makes mi dun feel like upgrading animore. i WANT TO STAY AT HRSC!!!

2005-07-17T01:09:00.000+08:00

ytd got no sports day coz the office not enuff ppl! bitch! all the DXOs go n do community service liao n like i mentioned earlier 3 nsf on leave went overseas for holiday n 3 nsf gone already. then left only we 4 small peanuts in the office slacking anyways...sian. n i think i can't stand staying in that building anymore! the air inside the office is full of bacteria n the air-con is super duper cold! we even have to wear jackets on top of the thick n uncomfortable NO. 3! everyone in the office is sick n the virus juz remain there forever. realli 20 years also no fresh air come into the building 1 lor it's always enclosed. er xin. then i sick from monday until now still haven't recover! bitch..

n i do not noe y i anticipate for the weekends to come anymore.. weekends also sian sian nobodi to go out with... then weekdays come again, the cycle nv stop. i could not stand this type of monotonous life...

n i noe y the tutee's mum dun wan mi to teach him maths liao... coz his new tuition teacher is a poly undergrad n he is only paid $160 for 8 lessons, each lesson 1.5 hrs! lol. that teacher so damn dumb! so little pay also wan to do. i 4 lessons already get $160 liao lor although one lesson is 2 hrs.. i would nv take up one that offers less than $20 per hr. teach sec3n4 A maths is the best! can get up to $30 per hr!..but i have to say actualli my tutee damn rich leh! his mum have to feed a maid, 3 sons, 2 of them have 2 tuition teachers, n my tutee juz bought 6230 for $400!BITCH LEH. everyone get wat they wan without having to work hard except mi...

2005-07-14T10:18:00.000+08:00

haiz... been emotionally n physically tired these few days. not feeling well since mon. wanted to take mc today 1 but today got medical board proceedings i juz can't afford to take mc. somemore my DXO that i am under is on mc today. then 3 nsf on leave. n 3 nsf disrupt or go back bmt...n i juz veri emotionally drained these few days thinking of how can someone change his attitude in juz ONE NIGHT?..i juz miss the days we had.

i realised that my unit got so much politics too.. this guy told mi dun like that guy. then this one say that one fucker. omg. i hate politics. typical jc life. that's coz all from jc aniway can't avoid vicious n backstabbers 1. n then realli like almost all my unit ppl from hcjc! got this hcjc guy damn cute n friendly! his smile is juz so charming n attractive n charismatic! his friendly n sociable nature makes him even more adorable n welcomed by everyone. so envious him! smart n cute. haiz..some ppl juz have everything desirable. so god is unfair. he noe who is terence ang. he say he from 03S67. his initials are Z W TAN?

2005-07-12T11:51:00.000+08:00

WHY WHY WHY?!!!!!!!!! Y MUZ EVERYBODI HURT MI THE SAME WAY?!? LIKE MI 1ST N THEN MAKE MI FALL FOR THEM N THEN HURT MI!???????!????????

I AM REALLI REALLI REALLI HURT.

2005-07-11T13:24:00.000+08:00

i have learnt to hate the weekends n everyday actualli. n dating ppl is a waste of time, money n energy. juz a weekend i spent

sat movie- $9.50
sun movie- $9.50 X 2 coz somebodi nv pay mi back.
bloody bbq - $10 for eating nothing.
sat nite taxi fare after bbq- $18.50
sunday morning cab fare-$10.50
billy bombers- $20.
other transport fees- $10

total: $97.50

2005-07-11T10:47:00.000+08:00

sunday nite:

" )~ says:
but can u tell mi honestly do u still like mi as much as b4 or lesser or no more
XXXXXX says:
lesser le
" )~ says:
ok...
" )~ says:
can i noe y
XXXXXX says:
There's someone else who likes me, and I have feelings for both Idun mean it to happen that way
" )~ says:
who is it..
XXXXXX says:
xxxxxxxxx
" )~ says:
so u both dating
XXXXXX says:
you must be disgusted with me
XXXXXX says:
yes.. but i meet you more often
XXXXXX says:
u r not crying are you?
" )~ says:
no... i am not. juz that i am quite disappointed that u didn't take the initiative to tell mi n have to let mi think abt it myself n ultimately wait like a fool
XXXXXX says:
silly, dun call yourself a fool.
XXXXXX says:
my feelings aren't that clear.. so i didn't tell both of u
XXXXXX says:
he din know either
" )~ says:
but i guess u only having a crush on mi rite coz even there's someone else that pops out the feeling should not reduced if u realli like that person, it could juz one as much as the other...
XXXXXXX says:
but i couldn't bring myself to lie to you, when you ask me about my feelings
XXXXXXX says:
I hesitate.. alot of times

tele conversation on tuesday

augustio: wan to meet?
mi: anything.
augustio: tonite u treat dinner.
mi: fuck off.

MSN NICK:
"i am glad that i have finally seen the light. u r not worth it! FUCK OFF!"- raldly_tew@hotmail.com

i had never forced u all to like mi in the 1st place. pls do not hurt mi by liking mi n hurt mi thereafter.

2005-07-10T01:29:00.000+08:00

i didn't noe that every friday my unit is released at 3pm for "sports day"...it means we can go to safra mt faber to play pool, basketball or swimming!!.. hehe..omg lah..no wonder safra mt faber is such a strategic place for aj cruising!..muahaha..

today is weekend! i love weekends! it's the time to enjoy!.. later going to eat crystal jade at taka n watch "war of the worlds". best part is crystal jade is free coz qy treating! *grins* muz ka her 1 large sum then can..at nite go sentosa bbq n at nite maybe go clubbing! tml finally can meet ___o__!.. watching intialD with him. yeah! =)

2005-07-08T10:08:00.000+08:00

well, i am quite glad that the ppl at cpc r quite friendly n there are no MCP SM or OC or watsoever. the ppl there are much civilised than any other army camp. n most of the ppl posted to cpc are from vjc, tjc, hcjc.. n few from poly. n none from ite. mdm say cpc is a top notch unit in saf n they do not allow tom, dick n harry to go there. so flattered. n even i upgrade i would have to go back to this unit. therefore i would be stuck there forever. n there are 2 pte n lcp there quite cute.. =)but think the ppl there all str8s. n i think my mdm bully mi lor. i have to undertake so many responsibilities!! have to do medical board despatch, letters n pfiles!! n worst thing is i am UNDER PAID!!!!.. have to moonlight alot to substantiate this meager pay. n there is this 30+ a bit plump n buang face woman who is a machine gun. luckily i am not under her. she is simply a %#&*^%()#@^%()&#() bitch splattering non-stop n the way she tok is those nei nei nei type n veri loud n look at her buang face juz feel like giving her a tight slap. wat a bitch. can't believe she is married. wat bad taste str8s have!!

another thing i wanna bitch is my tutee!! that bastard n his mother fucker can juz sms mi last min tell mi he found another maths tutor n therefore now i only teach eng n chi which means once a week which means pay is reduced by HALF!...saded.... i think i veri fierce towards him that's y he dun wan mi teach him maths. i dun mind. i can always find another tutee. at the end of the day, he is the one who is taking his bloody miserable "N" level to go to ITE. n his fucked up family have to suffer with a muddle-headed mother n 3 dumb kids.

weekends r realli damn precious for nsf. it is the only time to meet up with frens n date. haiz...ns SUXS. getting so sick of such life. i always miss someone so much throughout the whole week...

2005-07-04T11:18:00.000+08:00

VIPER PLATOON 2 SEC 2!!

the disguisting bed buddy is REC SADIK.

2005-07-03T01:18:00.000+08:00

finally left that god DAMNED island...n i am posted to DSTA!! yeah! it's so high class juz like those civilian working life n not those er xin army camp..but the bad thing is that i have to squeeze 97 with sajc ppl every morning then have to alight before sajc n change bus again!.. bitch. change 3 buses, waste lOTSA $!! my whole coy only i kanna posted there.

aniway i got lotsa stuff to bitch abt my coy. 1stly, my coy is viper n i in p2 sec2 bed 10. n none of them is from jc all either from poly or ite or nv study at all. then my bed buddy is those er xin malay guy who borrow everything from mi. fuck. then he is those 0 lvl cannot make it type then he likes to disturb n bully those quiet quiet guai guai ppl. wat a bastard. he has no power to bully ppl at all lor. he didn't realise that his own life is juz shit lor...so ugly n dumb. yucks. then he suspect i aj coz during introduction i say i no gf. then he say every nite i tok to ppl on phone muz be lover. so he insist that i aj. er xin. so wat if i aj? i am much better than him in every other way although we r both 1986 batch. LOSER! ..haha...

then my coy ppl arh.. either is grow until odd shape, or those thin thin white white 1, or those nerd nerd gong gong type or those fat fat realli clumpsy n smelly lobos..coz all pes E 1 so got some defects on them...i dun mean to mock at them coz i am also pes E temp now myself..but many of them r realli gong until can't stand 1..they juz can't follow simple instructions then footdrill have to repeat until siao coz keep making mistakes..then everytime when we march to the cook house for meals everybodi in the cook house juz turn their heads n stare at us like we r aliens coz our marching realli realli sux!.. so pai seh u noe..they 1 look noe we r pes E liao..then got this veri veri fat lobo he damn blur n cannot move fast at all he have to walk at a damn slow speed n he has this damn awful ammonia smell that shun everyone from him..fall in beside him can faint not becoz of the heat but the smell coming out from him!!..n he got psychological problems 1 thursday nite he stood alone at the corridor outside the platoon toilet for half an hr dunoe wat's he doing..look like wan to jump off the building lidat...veri scary..

then i have to say the world is inverted already. ppl used to say pes E clerk those sure ajs...but i beg to differ.. during intro that time a lot of those realli cannot make it type say they got gf!! n they r like damn str8 whole day tok abt gals. then juz opposite our coy is Taurus coy n it is a female coy then they always walk past then whistle or keep looking.. realli cannot make it..those nerd n gong type or those white white thin thin n odd shape type all so DAMN CHI KO BEI!!.. cannot make it..now become those fit fit cute cute pes A n B 1 then got aj lor..juz like california gym instructors 9 out of 10 r ajs... i heard from kp that police academy 1 all fit n cute ajs there..i think it's true.. coz that jerison also in police n he say that there got hell lot of ajs n they whole day juz cruise each other...

therefore can imagine how sian i am there...alot of those er xin ITE malay n indian guys veri noisy 1..haiz..SIAN!!!! how to make frens like that..

but nevertheless, there is still some gd times n great laughter during my 5 days there..the bad thing is that i have to go back to visit that island again after i upgrade pes.

i another thing is that ___o__ is going to be posted for overseas training for a yr!! ONE YR!! how to survive without him... army realli SUX BIG TIME. spoil ppl's relationship only. fuck.

2005-06-27T12:43:00.000+08:00

ok...friday morning went to give gary maths tuition....then afternoon went to give the real tutee tuition. wat i wan to say is that he is really hopeless. he claimed that he got study the chi words that i asked him to but apparently he didn't. when i ask him he noe nothing at all then tell mi say becoz he 4get. then chinese complete sentences realli give mi RUBBISH. yeah..ask him questions no reply like i am toking to the walls it makes mi feel so humilated. he dunnoe wun even say so juz wait for christmas to come. realli vomit lotsa blood...

then at nite went to watch terence's concert at sp. i dunoe how to appreciate classical music but juz wanna give him some support.

then sat morning went to malaysia visit grandma n for my cousin's wedding. it seems like all my cousin marrying realli early. got another cousin 23 yr old got a 5 yr old child liao. another 1 is 24 also got a 1 yr old child liao. dun realli like to go there coz they all all veri close to one another liao coz they live together then i veri outcast to my cousins. they communicate also use teochew 1 i realli veri extra there.

then today afternoon quickly fly back to singapore coz have to enlist tml morning at 9.45am.

realli going to die from tortures of national education lectures. yea..great. like i will be psychoed to be a gd citizen like that...n hopefully dun meet those really nerd n gong ppl in PES E there like joel..

aniway, cya all on nxt weekend!...

2005-06-24T13:30:00.000+08:00

i would definitely wan to kill my tutee now...

today when i was halfway to his house to give tuition then he say today cannot, coz he outside with frens can't go back in time for tuition. FUCK. yesh. waste my travelling time n $$... it seems like he realli wans to fail his N lvl. nvm, it's not my problem aniway..haha..he is getting on my nerves. when i can't take it anymore i will fuck *not literally, he is TOOOOO ugly for my appetite.* him upside down.

2005-06-22T14:41:00.000+08:00

today went to give maths tuition to my tutee. he is making mi boil as each week passes by. 1stly, nv do all my hw, 2ndly, those got do ones ALL wrong. YES, A-L-L wrong. 3rdly, FORGET FORMULAE. 4thly, 4got how to do certain types of question. 2 hrs tuition only a week n only can like do a few questions with him coz he realli need mi to repeat n repeat n all do wrong have to correct n correct him...how to finish teaching the whole syllabus!

(x-3)(x+5)=0 dunoe how to solve. can give mi answers like x=-3, x=5.
stupid mistakes like (-3)^2= -9. 6^2= 12...FUMES!
quadratic curves can draw ZIG ZAG line for mi...

my hands sometimes get itchy n feel like slapping him tite on his face. or grabbing his head to bang the wall. i have been veri veri patient with him already.

2005-06-22T02:18:00.000+08:00

You Are 19 Years Old

19

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

omg..i am realli 19. it's so accurate. it's a gd thing that i am not too childish nor too old..

2005-06-21T14:06:00.000+08:00

i felt that i was a fool when _a_ told mi the truth abt something in my previous r/s. n i am veri disappointed with someone. appeared matured n stable for more than a yr, his image totally shattered when the truth was made known to mi.

claimed that ppl who has been thru alot would be more matured, i begged to differ. mani tot they r the ones who would be more matured but actaulli they r the ones who r problematic.

to think that i was bluffed n even brought into a quarell that he did not like _a__ and accused mi of rather listening to a fren than him realli makes mi fumes. ppl hate gossipers becoz sometimes the things that they gossip is true n they are afraid that the truth might spill out. i despise such ppl.

he appeared to be someone who do not noe wat he wans at all.

2005-06-21T14:02:00.000+08:00

i tot it thru veri carefully liao, i know wat kind of person i want to be with. i wanna be with __o___.
i will treat him like my own from now on. n i pledge i have totally phased augustio out of my mind.

2005-06-21T10:02:00.000+08:00

sat went out with stuart n kp, yar, it's the 3 same ex-sAJcians gathering..hehe..kp bought a neon zen n a new bag, damn envious. then after that mi n stuart went tcc at somerset to meet up with byrant n kenneth. then after that went clubbing for a while coz it's my last sat to go clubbing with hair...

there's something quite dramatic happened on sat clubbing. but i dun feel like blogging. aniway it is over.

sunday afternoon went to celebrate ray's bday at kbox cine....then at nite went to qy's bbq.

this morning went back to sajc to collect A level cert. then met up with jeph in town go walk walk...

2005-06-18T16:01:00.000+08:00

i guess i have to blog it all out so i wun have to keep everything within myself. i inside now veri luan.

i have tried to 4get abt augustio but it seem that i have failed. i tried not to call him for the past 4 days but ended up keep thinking abt him. somehow i juz need to noe how is he doing if not i feel veri uncomfortable. he juz come into my mind every now n then. but augustio is someone who goes for looks. n i do not have that chemistry with him when we go out together. he is sometimes warm sometimes cold.

then there's this __o___ i went out with him 2 times this week. he likes mi. i realli dun wish to hurt him. he is a nice guy. i am veri luan myself. i know he could understand mi well n is someone who can be with together. he is realli not bad

but the problem is there is still space for augustio in my heart. i realli dun wan to hurt __o___. n when augustio hold my hand my heart will suddenly becum veri excited anihow beat. but when __o___ holds my hand, my heart beat is still normal...this means that the person i like is augustio..i am veri luan inside mi...i dunnoe who i am myself now...

n i am worried abt that dirty virus n also not sure wat will things be like when i enter army too. i wun get to see augustio n __o___ often as well..

i am VERI LUUUUUUUUUAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNN INSIDE!!!!!!!!!

2005-06-16T10:32:00.000+08:00

successfully restrained myself from calling or sms augustio for 2 days le. but instead he did called mi. it's always ironic...but we made things veri clear to each other le.

2005-06-14T15:05:00.000+08:00

this morning went toni n guy cut hair..micheal is veri nice to come down purposely to cut my hair coz he is sick today. veri thankful to him.

then went to rescue my sis immediately coz she was caught shop lifting a $1.95 item?.. that's veri veri dunnoe how to think on her part. maybe i think i noe the reason y she did that. she juz wan to can save then save. coz she might feel that she is a veri great burden on my father who is supporting her studies in australia. thou $1.95 is like DOT. veri dunoe how to think whether it is worth it anot if she get caught.

then went to meet qy at her lounge. 19th june is the big day where she booked the whole lounge n a bbq pit. can eat n play mahjong there..hehe.i like happy moments.

then at nite went to meet marcus n ray n his new love. ate at silk road in amara hotel. brought back mani memories of my sec 4 prom nite which was held there. touching memories n hurting ones too. esp remembering that bitch n bastard. the restuarant is posh..envy how loving ray n his bf are. started to think abt myself. augustio cannot be the person who give mi happiness. special thanks to ray who counsell mi abt augustio n abt some dirty things. n marcus too. feel much safer from that dirty thing now. but i still will have to be confirmed b4 i can slp n eat with peace.

toking abt eat n slp, these few days i eat half way will suddenly feel like puking. think i agitated my stomach on thursday after doing some skipping. my whole person i juz so defected. so much flaws n imperfections. veri angry n disguisted with myself...

2005-06-13T07:16:00.000+08:00

my mind abit bonkers. couldn't slp n eat properly. make by all the ppl ard mi. n i am afraid that i am dirty. i juz wanna be clean n leave this place once n 4 all...

2005-06-08T23:40:00.000+08:00

ytd i did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING in the office from 8am-5.30pm. i am realli going crazy sitting there waiting for 8.5 hrs to pass. it is a real test for endurance n patience. it is realli a torture itself..

2005-06-07T00:33:00.000+08:00

feeling veri nausea abt the aj circle..veri tired.

aniway, my tutee has also wanted mi to teach mi maths coz his mum kick his maths tutor away. lol. the mum say he not gd n think i am gd. his eng n chi improved tremendously after 6 lessons. but his maths fall like siao. only got 24/100 for his mid-yr...n it's a gd thing that his mum kick his maths tutor. now my tuition pay is $320 for a month!! slurrrp..

2005-06-05T11:31:00.000+08:00

friday after work went to d's birthday celebration. ate at a vegetarian restuarant in chinatown. nv knew vegetarian food taste fantastic too. yar...

today went jb with jeph n his bf. ate pizza hut. we 3 person order a set meal meant for FOUR person 1. n on top of that we order 6 chicken wings n some stuff crust. the service is prompt n gd. n the best part was everything cost only RM $66. means each person only RM $22. means only $9.75!! CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP. if eat at sg pizza hut order so much stuff hor will add up to at least $25 per person lor.. keke.. n watched "house of wax". it is gruesome. should go n watch. n guess wat? only RM$10! means $4.42! cheap cheap cheap!! sg sat watch movie is $9.50!..today whole day only spend like $15? =P

aniway, receive cmpb's letter already. writing in to shoot them realli works. enlisting on 27 june as PES E temp for 3 months..then have to go thru the real BMT after that! worse rite!?

2005-06-03T14:03:00.000+08:00

today after work when out with a_______, n i nv was so happy b4. he thanked mi for making his 23rd birthday a memorable 1. wat surprised mi was that he gave mi a green box n told mi that it is his present from malaysia to mi. inside got 2 pieces of shirt, i tot how come he buy 2 pieces. actualli 1 piece wrote " love is where i am" the other piece wrote "love is where you are"...he asked mi to choose which one i would like to have. i chose " love is where i am". hee.. aarrghh...so long nv felt this way already. he is the 1st one who is realli my type who is aj also n also somehow reciprocated. =)

2005-06-02T10:16:00.000+08:00

today juz realised that my moe pay is $6.00 per hr n not $6.50 becoz i am not an uni undergrad!! fuck. wat's the difference bet a A lvl holder n uni UNDER grad? not that they have grad liao also can drop out anytime n left with a A lvl only wat...
n the pay is not coming on this fri, it is only coming on nxt tues...sian diao. this weekend cannot go enjoy liao..

n i am damn tired n sian of work. full-time everyday 8-5.30 is damn sian. n after work got nobodi to go out with n no where to go n go home i am damn bored!!

2005-05-31T13:37:00.000+08:00

sat morning went to give flyers for our own tuition agency again... so far recieved 3 calls but i think only 1 out of 3 would be successful.. it's not veri easy to do thou..

at nite went for dinner with j at suntec. the meal cost abt $25 per person..broke.

sunday morning went to give tuition. nxt wk will get $160 le..hehe...n my MOE pay is coming this fri. $328.25 ..keke. this weekend will be $488.25 richer.. slurrpp. gonna indulge in the great sg sale this weekend. lol.

aniway, i have to deduct $100 away from $488.25 coz i had already spent $100 on a_______'s bday. treat him crystal jade n movie somemore. now movie weekends is $9.50 per person somemore. BROKE BROKE BROKE. but when i saw his happy face upon seeing the present it juz makes mi happy too. i think i am madly in love. i really enjoyed the day out with him. originally planned to go sentosa 1 but it was rainning so badly. n somemore i intended to rent a car to drive him ard 1 but too bad POH failed my driving test on fri. FUCK U.

thou i done so much, i noe i will still always be a lonely person. simply becoz aj will always be lonely. for life.

today reach PPS of MOE at 8.04am. SURPRISE! nobodi reach yet. stuck outside the office for 20mins. at 8.30am still half the office empty. lol everybodi having monday mad rush n suffering from sunday hangovers. have been slacking in MOE for a week already. then suddenly mrs goh came in n gave us tonnes of work to do n veri tight datelines to meet. today came at 3pm told mi n jerald to photocopy 800 sets of documents to be sent out all by tml. then at 4pm suddenly this ms serene gave mi 17 sheets of data to type n say muz be ready by 12noon tml n the best part is she say that's becoz there's still much more data to type. wat the F***. tml will have a great time in office already.

2005-05-28T14:04:00.000+08:00

felt so lonely on such a romantic friday nite like this... nv felt this way for veri long already. not that i am attached or watsoever for the whole period, juz that i have nv felt this way for so long already. but the feeling suddenly came back... i have always appeared strong n heck care all these love love stuff..but...it has came back to haunt mi.

nobodi wans to be lonely~

2005-05-28T08:44:00.000+08:00

i failed my driving test today...sian diao realli. $300+ will fly away...n need to wait another 3 months. i am impatient on waiting for things 1. n i got to curse that bloody tp tester. he demerit 6 pts for insufficient acc, 4 pts for too slow in moving off, 4 pts for fail to overtake when necessary n 10pts for speed too slow for road n traffic conditions. FUCK u!!!!.. it's so difficult to maintain 0 demerit points for parking n the circuit course n yet i did it but he fail mi at such stuff!..bloody hell. not that i hit kerb or nv check mirror or going to cause accidents or watsoever lor..suay means suay la. i am sick today somemore..i am always veri suay in life 1 aniways..

2005-05-25T09:46:00.000+08:00

ytd went to distribute flyers for mi, jan n ter's own tuition agency. yes. our own 1. n today received a call from sec2 student. so happy. that's a gd start. 1 successful transaction made means $100 n divided by 3 = each person abt $33! omg. if one month can have 30 such transactions then juz by this each of us can earn $990!.. so excited abt this plan..hehe..n i am giving tuition per month $160 n now i working in MOE 1 day is $55. going rich soon! hehe..*dreaming* aniway, am now starting not getting $ from my parents animore. it feels good to be independent.

2005-05-24T12:01:00.000+08:00

sat initially wanted to meet up with jan, kp n ter 1 but then raining heavily in the afternoon so cancelled the session..then i slpt for the whole afternoon then at nite went town to meet up jephthah..

later at nite originally wanted to meet ______e for a mid-nite show but in the end also cancelled. so boring. everything cancelled.

sun morining a_______ wanted to come to my house for a while to use the net urgently coz his house no pc but then hp making fun of mi. he said he keep calling but can't get thru so he went back home instead. then i went to my cousin's wedding tea session.

actaulli planned to go directly to give tuition at bedok after the wedding thing 1 but in the end still got time so went to find a_______. i wanted to buy food for him to eat coz he no $ already. he even have to resort to eating maggie mee n canned food.

then went town walk walk n watch star wars with zach, ray n jerald. it lasted for 2.5 hrs n i slpt somewhere in the middle of it coz too draggy n i was tired. then after that went holland V TCC had dessert. discuss alot of issues with ray. i know wat to do. been thinking alot too. not going to stead with anione. dun think anyone is realli the person i wan n dun think they are worthed my effort. esp a________. he juz told mi he took some drugs ytd. OMG. yucks. seems like his life is realli those anyhow anyhow 1. do not wish to get invovled with such person. now i am realli worried that he realli might have aids too. been thinking of whether i should leave this circle totally. felt disgusited with ppl n their lifes. *PUKES*

2005-05-22T03:19:00.000+08:00

thurs went toni n guy academy for michael to cut hair..hmm...dun realli seem to like this hair cut coz the fringe cut until like left no more whereas other parts are longer... sad..

then afternoon went sun tanning at my country club...long time nv go there liao..enjoy the view of sentosa island from the swimming pool ..n the pool got nobodi can juz do watever u wan..hee..this time round realli chao ta liao. cannot tan futher all the skin will drop.

fri morning started work at moe. $6.50 per hr. earned $52 a day. but all fly away on the day itself. coz i spend all on a_______'s bday present. now broke again. am i stupid? throw away $ on someone who i would nv get anithing in return. well, i am always stupid when it comes to love. aniway, who say love isn't blind?

at nite went to meet stuart n kp n chatted our hearts out. it is a heart-warming meeting as the same old 3 aj saints get together n bitch abt life n stuff like we used to do in sajc cafeteria.. kp realli suffered alot in camp. bless him.

going to meet kp, ter n qy today for mahjong session. n ter did not get into law n econs double degree with AAAA A2 DIST MERIT CCA=B SAT=1390 PW=band 1. nus is realli a bitch this yr.

2005-05-19T15:36:00.000+08:00

went jb this morning with j, d n t,...bought a billabong boardshorts which cost only RM$50 means S$22 only..chEAP CHEAP...such a shorts if bought in singapore will cost at least $65 lor...n an adiddas sports singlet which also cost RM$50... cheap cheap.. lol.. u could hear lotsa of birds "chirping" there which all come from my mouth..haha..n the best part is the transport fee is only $1.26 includes to n fro trip.. CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP.. ok...enuff of chirping.. but the bad thing is that the weather there is hotter than sg, n the air not veri clean. the clothes there actualli alot not much cheaper than sg, except those mentioned above, n their design sux n outdated...

at nite when to hemisphere for their private AJ function which they served a 5 course dinner juz like those western restuarant..damn full n my stomach can't take it ..go back lao sai..haha..

supposed to meet yq n pass her sec 2 maths n sci textbook becoz she going to teach sec2 tuition but in the end she change plan..but met a______ on my way back home coz he was at jurong east stadium cheerleading for albirex VS geylang today..albirex won..